I was sexually abused by somebody in the family
I belong to an orthodox family. Lakshmi Narayan Tripathi was the name given to me even before I was born. My grandfather, a respected pandit, said to my mother, who bore seven children, that only three of them would make it. I was the eldest son. I was a sick child and very feminine. People would laugh at me. I could never understand why they were doing that. I never understood the world. I was sexually abused by somebody who was a part of our family. It was difficult for me to even go to school and college. People used to call me chhakka, gur and what not. It was upsetting. Whichever man came to my life, abused me. At that time, I was a very different person from what I am today. I could hardly speak then. I was not confident.
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I would have been Umrao Jaan... Main apna kotha kholti
One fine day, I got the guts to say 'no'. I told myself, 'You can't do it.' After that no, my whole life changed. I started learning dance and I opened my own dance school. I was done with my arangetram in Bharatnatyam when I was in sixth, and by seventh standard I had opened my own dance academy. I started model coordination. I had affairs. I took revenge on men. Later, I abused them (laughs). It's amazing when you are aware of your femininity, and you can make men crawl and come to you. That's the beauty of being a woman. I am 35 and dating a 22-year-old guy. Isn't that awesome? Had I been a woman, I would have been today's Umrao Jaan. Main apna kotha kholti.
You are absolutely normal. The world around you is abnormal
Since I started earning quite early, I had the money to go out and party. I remember, when I was in the sixth standard, once I went to meet Ashok Row Kavi, and told him that people find me abnormal. He said, 'Baby, you should study,' and I said, 'No, I don't want to study. People find me abnormal, and I like men.' That's when he gave me the gyaan of a lifetime. He said, 'Baby, you are absolutely normal. The world around you is abnormal.'
Tum yeh social work kar lo, mujhe toh mera makeup chahiye
I met Shabina Frances and became friends with her. She told me about the hijra culture. She promised to be my guru if I joined them. Shabina wanted to start an organisation for the betterment of their community. I gave her the money, but told her, 'Tum yeh social work kar lo, mujhe toh mera makeup chahiye.' Jab tak subah lipstick nahi lagayenge, din kaise shuru hoga?
During my college days, I was the only drag queen on campus. My professor used to tell me to get out of the class. He would say, 'Laxmi, you are not supposed to apply lipstick.' And I would say, 'Okay, bye bye.' At that time, I was very bad. I didn't respect anybody because people didn't respect me. But life taught me. I never thought I could be a social worker. But here I am today, fighting for our rights and the place we deserve in society. I am respected because of my work. And what I am, the Supreme Court has given its verdict on (the Supreme Court recently created the 'third gender' status for transgenders).
I loved my father
Since I was very open about my sexuality, there were conspiracies in the family to kill me. They said, 'Laxmi family par kalank hai.' But my parents were unbiased. My father and I never had a dialogue. Though he said I was free to do whatever I wanted to, he clarified that I had to do it from home. In an interview, my dad was asked, 'You are a brahmin and your son is a hijra, how do you feel about it?' The interviewer pataoed him to speak. But my dad surprised me. He said, 'Whether it's an educated or an uneducated family, in any sabhya society, parents don't go and see what their kids are doing in their bedrooms. Laxmi is as normal as anybody else. Laxmi is not handicapped and will always be my son, till my last breath.' I fell in love with him in that moment. I wasn't discriminated against at home. So I never knew how it would feel to sell your body for `20. My parents came to know about my abuse on Sach Ka Saamna. After learning everything, they never asked me any question. My sister then asked my dad why he didn't have any questions, and he said, 'Laxmi is over it. Why should I drag my child back into the same hole? Laxmi is fine now.'
Women need to love themselves to feel loved
In life, what we require the most is love, unconditional love. But the problem is, as women, we don't love ourselves enough. Women love their children, their husbands, their homes, their money, their makeup, but how much do they love themselves? How much time do they spend in front of the mirror? Women need to love themselves in order to feel loved.
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